i'm confused...i'm torn out...

i wanted to go closer

but i wouldn't dare

cos my imperfect will scare you away

i wanted to go closer

but you're surrounded by the nicest thing

i know i will be useless then

i wanted to go closer

but when i think about the border between us

i won't dare to go closer

i won't

when i had the stage

when i had the chance to act

i failed

your respond had torn me to pieces

i hate you.

i wanted to cry out loud

but i wouldn't dare to show the world how sad i was

so i fake a smile like everytime

when i was a candy collector

you gave me so many of candies

i tasted sweet candies

i tasted bitter ones too

but i forced myself to believe

that bitter ones are sweet ones too

until today

i only knew the difference

the diference between sweet and bitter

i guess i was wrong

i never tasted sweet candies

it had been bitter ones all the way

if i have the chance to give a big cry out

i'll still tell the world out there that i am ok

though i'll be crying deep inside again.

you can tell the world that i'm insane

but i'm going to tell you

this is how i win attention.

sacrificing too much is always too much... ...

i give up.

i'm out.

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