im too addicted.

my biggest mistake
is to be addicted to you
my day rules becos of u
it was ruined becos of u too

i cant believe ur power
its so incredible
its just so powerful
everyday seems like a routine to me

i cant believe im speacless now

i feel so empty... ...

the past was never forgotten
it will never be
ur the first
ur all i want

for the whole day
ur eyes ur smiles
r all i think about
every second was all about u

ur story has been told
i wish u were there
to celebrate the miracle
to hear all the incredible

i miss u
i shouted to the world
where r u when i need ur voice?
i miss u

i feel so empty
i guess im addicted to u
where r u?
i miss u

please tell me ur okey
i cant function without u
ur the only thing tat keeps me awake
n now where r u?

wat should i do?
i waited so long
for this moment
n ur not there

i miss my dude
i really do
just wondering
am i wat ur thinking about now?

I MISS U!!!!!!!!I SHOUT TO THE WORLD...

hey look.

i know we r the present
i dont wanna get hurt
im sorry u did
i should b the one to appologize
it never is u

its just im not prepared
really
im sorry
its too sudden
ur all i wanted n now ur mine
i cant
i need time to take this changes
i really do

if u say sorry, it will meant the world to me.

if only u know ur wrong

n apologize

how nice will tat be?

i still insist tat its not over yet

i still believe in this

thank u for making my day light up

ur still part of my happiness

u meant everything to me, n im surprise u knew it all the way..

u played a fool on her innocence
making it feel like its a fairytale
n then u just leave her there
all alone

u can laugh all u want
u can do wat u want
but the heart is broken
dont try to mend it

ur nothing get it?
if the last thing she wanna think about
is u n ur darn method of fooling
ur even worser than the past

she cant believe it
this is how u treat her?
this is how u treat a pathetic girl?
u have some nerves in there

u just made it clear, didnt u?
u just did, u really did
u prove to her tat there is no fairytale
bravo to u, the dream spoiler

ur taking her for granted
u really are
she doesnt know how to react anymore
she really dont know

she doesnt wanna see or hear anythin
ever again

what is wrong with me?

still figuring out wat happened
the scene is playing in my head
over n over again
like it wont stop

take one step by a time
i just hope tat time can still wait for this one
this will be a miracle
it will be different i believe

i dont know wat is happening
i really dont know
not anymore
i hope everything is meant

the fact is
its still making me shiver
and this time im not good at expressing
i dont even know wats moving in my brain

this chemical flowing in my brain
is weird
i hope it can still be saved
i hope for the best will happen

somebody, anybody just take me away.

i hang down the phone
i told myself i wont cry

this isnt my shit

i shouldnt give a damn about it

but y does this thing fall down to me?

i just want everyone to have fun

they told me they will take good care about it

look, this is wat they mean

throwing everything back to me again

i hate you all

they told me i can trust them

these are all just a pile of lies

no one is who i can trust

even myself i cant trust myself

we laugh together

we make jokes of each other

we told each other we will be together

i used to believe it

but not anymore

when ur alone

u cry alone

no one sees your tears

no one will give a damn about it anymore

those memories r just jokes tat i lied to myself

take me away

let me leave this place

i dont wanna see anything

i dont wana hear anything

i dont wanna believe in miracle

not anymore

love vs money

i sit on the chair
figuring out y dad n mom go crazy

im just trying to show the innocence

hidden inside i know its because of us

they just wanted to earn money for us to have a better life

sometimes i run away from reality

sometimes i choice to be in my small world

coz im my world money never conqure

in my world only peace n love rule

i guess im just too immature

too immature to figure out money's power

if we can get wat we want while not losing love

tell me, isnt tat better?

i guess im just too young

inmature to think about wat make life rule

all i know is hidden inside

i luv love more than anything else

it has been a long day today.

i luv my job, my seniors, my campers, everything, i just miss turbo, the Anna i used to know.
the Anna who always care for me, who always have the best msgs tat will cheer me up, i think shes gone... ...i guess she got bored of me afterall.

tat fucking turbo, an assing dude. where had he been? for pissing shake. will he ever come back?

i cant tell u how i feel, i just know everything is getting me.

i have to admit

days flowing without u is hard

i know i have to get over u

coz u are the pain i dont wanna 4get

i know i have to leave

but a voice inside my head

its telling me to persist

i dont know anymore

i can feel how she feels

coz i am going through it too

i didnt mean to fake

i just thought it is the right thing to do

the sun will come out again

tell me u will still treat me well again

tell me i havent been 4gotten

im not a pass not yet

i will pick up everything

every little pieces

every little steps tat u left me alone

left me figure out alone

nothin just those hidden ones.

hands covering the face

the fake smiles couldnt be twisted anymore

tears rolling down
like they have no where to go
instead hidding they choice to fall

i dont belong

but i force to squeeze in

tell me its over

tell me its the beginning

dont tell me i have been forgotten

i dont want to live in miserable

its just everything flowed unexpected

very unexpected

looking at the birghtside

is just a way to let everything fade by time

i need to stand up

i need to go against the odds
who needs fake comforts

all i need to know is tat i am alive

alive to show the world i dont give up

rrrrr

im not just a lucky lass, i am an awesome lass!

never knew tat i was something too
she treated me well just like a buddy
couldnt imagine it
its a miracle
it really is
i guess all this time i had been thinking too much then

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im kinda bored with this site already
i guess i have to say it?
i mean its like a blog hidding in no where
huh?

untitled. a.k.a. part 4 unknown

a hidden picture is always kept between the words

waited so long.

just thought the mail man will send me a mail

a mail from you

but nope

everyone recieved the special mail

just me

left with nothing

i was curious about the parcel which slipped off my hand

just wondering wat is in it.

i am left with nothing

i knew i was nothing

but you kept making me feel im everything

how should i face it?

i know nothing

right?

we smile together, i cry alone.

smiles and laughters are shared with everyone

but how about tears?

how many is willing to help mend your feelings?

how many?

so called friends

show up on your benefit day

no benefit

you wont see them

so called enemies

always show up on your worst

like usual

tat is their job isnt it?

i just wanna know

why must we cry alone?

why cant we go through everything together?

why?

why must the person u care most break your heart

why?

trying so hard to fit in.

its raining here
everything turned out just fine
until i screwed up again
my message sucks
i was critisize again

it has always been like this
so hard to fit in
even in the surroundings

i will be strong for sure
i know a lot of people care about me
i know they do
i luv nic, bro, anna, random royalty, bolevard 92, add jade.

my life is surrounded by all those imperfect.
and...
i like it this way.

everythings over.

i screwed up on my test.
* * *
sometimes its hard to feel tat something went so wrong and you cant blame anyone but YOURSELF. im not obbsessed with anyone anymore ANYMORE yea, if i ever try to get back please hold me back.

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at night

sitting on the corner of the bed

staring at the celing

wondering how did i ended up this way

nothing falled from the sky

only tears rolling down the cheeks

i felt bad for myself

i really do

no one can help me

no one knows the right thing to say anymore

never felt like that before

it was helpless and so depressed

just tell me

i will get over all these

just tell me

tomorrow will be different