i luv E.L.S!!!!!!!!!

I FREAKING LUV ELS!!!!!!!!!!!
LET ME TELL U, THIS SOCIETY IS SO GREAT!!!!!!!!! REALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS time, it Is the general meeting.....recalling last year *sigh* said a bunch of bullshit,
but this year thing changes, it really does n YUP~THE MEETING TURNED OUT AWESOMELY( do we spell this word like tat? lol.:D)
YEA I ENJOYED IT MAN, I REALLY REALLY DID!!!!!!!
n im so happy tat some1 knows SON OF DORK!!! n tat is NICOLE! very great, huh?LMAO.

mr victor n ms nicole r so crazy about the morning english broadcast, im so happy! really as in idk how 2 say it but its like u know THEY luv 2 b a broadcaster just like me.!!!!!!.....
awwwwwwwwwwww.......................thanks u guys, i found happiness n joy in this society i really do, n the credit.........goes 2 all da members!!!!!!!!thank u!!!!!!!!!!u guys r way awesomeXD.!!!!!!!
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I DONT CARE WOT YA ALL THINK ABOUT ELS, i dont care if u guys think tat its a slacker society, or a dull place 2 b in, the fact is tat i luv it..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just hope tat every1 could enjoy this society as much as i did! lol.
I LUV ELS!!!!!!!!!!I REALLY DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heyS

had a awesome day yesterday....i told ya all already my society ppl r great@! they r so freaking fun loving!!!!!luv them.:D
u guys know wot? im lucky really..coz i met many ppl in my life who really can except who i am...
as in im crazy...hypo...random...weird...all those stuff which might make ppl annoying but just like wot i said, im lucky cos the ppl i met they just luv me 4 who i am...n i like it this way 2..
:D
thank you my dear god 4 letting me meet these great ppl...thanks really appreciate it..

hey n 2 da ppl who had lightened my life, a very, very big thank you 2 u.

*sigh*

freakin down these days
just hope tat things will get better....
i hate 2 say this but....
im tired already, lost the passion 2 do things
all good things come 2 an end....i once thought tat its not true but now, im force 2 believe it...

i just wanna have a normal sweet life tats all....
mayb im just asking for too much, mayb...

but all i know is
losers sees thunderstorms,
n
winner sees rainbows...

all i need 2 do is just 2 believe tat, i can make it...believe in myself, b my own best friend...
yea i guess tats a good way 2 keep holdin on n continue life...

:!

my awesome sweet 16 day!

yea man 2day is salt child's birthday, freakin great!!!!!!!...
we did the interview of business studies project n i tell u it was way awesome!!....spend my study time doing it but it was all worth it!!!!!!!it was 2 great beyond words i luv it....
hope tat it will all just remain this way.......
luv u guys.........awww...........turbo is freakin rite, shouldnt waste so much time on a relationship when ur only 16, should waste more time with friends enjoy the prosses of a teenager...
me n my sweet 16, here i come!

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yesterday wos my sweet 16 birthday, wot can i say? well it didnt turn out the way i want, but i really appreciate those ppl who have spent their time with me it was great man!...


about me n my friends well yea we have our ups n downs but we all know tat


EVERYTHING IS OK now.... well we arent tat close after we got seperated this year, but we r like wot? trying 2 b as close as last year well i know its tough we all know.


but all i can say is tat i still luv u all i really do....


jia yu, salt child, rainbow, ahmad, wen yi, big boss.....u guys rock my damn world...

sorry ppl i cant stand it anymore...just cant...

i know these days the msg ive posted, r like MORE positive coz i dont wanna ya'all 2 c the sad part of me get it? huh? let me tell u, i just cant....nowadays things r just so damn wrong i dont dare 2 tell, dont dare 2 write it down on ma blog, coz i dont want the ppl around me 2 c me sad, or seeing me being negative, really....
but the fact is tat I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!REALLY CANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!i feel so tense up these days, nothin ever come better...

2morrow is my SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY, so last year i wos thinkin about an awesome party, n nice outfit, those blah thing but it seems like i just cant have it....need 2 get over it...but its ok im used 2 this sort of normal, quiet birthday celebration its ok with me.

i really dont wanna think negative but...
nowadays im freakening tired but cant sleep...
nowadays my friends c me like shit....
nowadays i did so many sins...
nowadays i suspect my responsibility...
nowadays im wondering " am i doing da rite thing? "
nowadays i just feel so tired very...
my sweet 16 is not tat sweet after all.....

traceline the random gurl.

babbies....

Do u know wots so great 4 being a baby? u dont even need 2 care anything in life all u need 2 do is just cry when u wanna, just scream when u wanna, just laugh when u wanna......but as u grow older, u just cant b the real u anymore we all learnt how 2 wear " masks" as in u know wot u want but u know u cant use ur "method" 2 get it, u know 2 b a " faker " or something 2 get wot u want i know it all happens 2 us, but stay strong ppl, ull get over it.

im sorry...

im sorry tat i said those sh*t 2 u...didnt mean it though really....2day is such a weird day 4 me,
did u change my day or something? it seems like every1 is avoiding me....gosh wots wrong? havent really got time 2 slow down, 2 enjoy normal life, n there it goes again....

im really sorry.....

yup im still me the cheerful me.

no mattar wot happens after the storm after the rain, the sun will still come out.

i luv my friends n will always b there when they need me, u guys r da best ya all really mean so much 2 me, u guys may not b the best in the world, but u all r always the best in my own small world. :Dluv u guys sooo much....FRIENDS FOREVER! cant wait 4 our blog 2 come out...i bet it will b so awesome.:D

i feel so bad...

i thought tat im good, im friendly, am a good leader, a good friend, a good child...
but...
im wrong im not a good leader, just making trouble in da hall earlier this afternoon...
i didnt even prepare da best gift 4 ma friend.....
am friendly? damn tats so wrong........
didnt did well in ma test recently, wot am i actually doing? its so wrong man...it really is....
im sorry, im honestly sorry.......
sorry 4 not being da perfect gurl....
sorry.

ok so we got number 2!!!!!

GOSH! yesterday wos the most awesome day....i tell u no1 can ever believe it!!!!!!!

it was so great 4 some1 as ordinary like me, it really is.
we went 2 melacca 2 the YAYASAN COLLEGE, kinda nice school, we practise 4 a WHILE, THEN "THE GAME" begin.....we went up stage performing our best, showing other school wot we got, n all of a sudden, it turn out really great, we even got number 2...at first i was like so tense up when we didnt get number 3, coz i thought tat we will go back empty hand, but so lucky we were actually number 2! when the MC announce tat the first runner up goes 2 "the chronicals of NARNIA" i was freaking happy!!!!!!!i really was.!!!!.n nicole went up 2 get our trophy mr.goh was so happy he stood up raise his hands up, n as 4 me, the usual 1 stood up, with consert hand, n scream..........gosh, damn it was so great ot really is........
n on our way back we played, it was awesome, n we cach a movie later on, the waterhorse or something it was great 2....i havent have this sorta feeling 4 a very long time, i luv it, wanna start it all over again........i really do........
this choral speaking thing, i know it took a lot of my study time n so on, but it is all worth it,
so all i need 2 do know is 2 put everything back 2 the correct track, n burry myself with dozens of homework, projects...
but all i can say is, I LUV ELS!!!!!

so we r going 2 melacca 2morrow!!

have a very tired day 2day....Practising choral speaking....well i have 2 admit it is sickening tired 2 practise, but choral speaking practise is always so awesome!!!!!!!!i enjoyed it so much just hope tat every1 enjoyed it as much as i do....
well we might not win this competition but its really ok, becos we really practise so hard....so ya no regrets no mattar wot happens 2morrow, no mattar if we win or not...it is all ok....!!!!!!!!!.....
becos we tired our best we really did. n yea i learnt lots of things in these weeks of practising i enjoyed every prosses, everytime we spend 2gether....
it is always so fun 2 b with my society ppl, they make me feel like home, they r da best in my world they always will....

life is so much of drama

lots of things happen these days very frustrated, very. just cant understand, y do we need ups n downs, huh? i know its 4 us 2 grow or wotever blah thing it is but it makes life so tough.
it really does, i cant control my emotions nowadays, im just 2 stress up....tat is wot i can say....
i know it sound negative, but i need 2 write it down 2 make myself better......i know ill b the same cheerful me after everything is ok.....but it really need time 4 me 2 put everything back in position again. ill b ok i will.
im sorry 4 the ppl who i got mad of these days, pls 4give me. im just 2 stress up everything is just 2 wrong...
yea so im so sorry 2 all ma friends, i know i no longer talk tat much on recess time or lunch time...but pls 4give me i know im acting kinda weird these days but ill b ok, k? dont worry....i just need some time ( too stress up )....