farewell. is it the end?

i told myself i wont cry. but i just did... ... the moment i think about ya'all will be graduating, its just too sad to accept the truth, am sorry i just let you all see my tears.
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i dont feel anything today, i seriously just dont. at least not in the beginning but then, on playing games its just an ass. oh yea! the lunch was okey Mr.Goh is kinda nice sometimes. haha thanks to my little bro who help out today, its a BLAST to know ya! =D

then gifts distributing, sigh man kinda sad only Mr. ball and Mr. foo came. still luv them to bits.>33333333
and then it was the drama part.

my tears shed when i think about i wont see them again. on gift distributing, i cried. after tat on shaking hands with my heroes, i felt okey. but when i entered the next room, my tears blur my eyes again, jia round came, he told me he will come back 2 time every month. can i believe him? i dont know man. i really dont know. anyway, promise you will, k? oh yea and our promise. the " treat me, if you found a partner" thing, hahaha i hope you still remember.=D
work hard my heroes.
oh yea happy 18 birthday to the 38 dude.!. happy always lad.

i luv english language society.
we aint dorks, just a butch of freaks!!!!!!so just rock on like us!!!!!!!!!!
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i am a gurl filled with happiness, i can be me, myself today is becos of all of you. =D
my life is filled with the best people tat i can ever imagine
my life road aint alone becos of all of you.

specially thanks to.
God
the Choo and Arquiza family
ELS
Random Royalty
bolevard1992
AC1
nicole anna
Roxanne Rose
the royal teachers
the royal rockstars

my luv and blessings are for all of you.<333333333333333333>

ELS.

im having fun in ELS
but how about the others? my duty isnt done
until every1 enjoys ElS
i luv english language society
but sometimes the bad feedback
really made me to give up
it really did
i dont know how far i could go
all i know is
i have to stand up for this society
i have to
i will take it as a mission
a promise from ELS
a promise from the ex
most of all a promise to me
i wont give up till the end
i wont
i will keep on fighting
until the end
just wait and see
2009 will be different

my life is a happy lass life...

nicole is fine tat is wot matters most
i know tat she will go through it
she is a tough lass
i luv her


still searching for anna
where has she been?
i hope she will come back sooner or later
anna, i miss you...


farewell party is coming
and a shopping trip with nic to S'pore will be coming!!!!
OH MY GOD! how cool will tat be?

he still treats me well
i still like him everytime
and i cant deny it
hes still the best for me



turbo replied my message
a lame one but still



bolevard1992 is going very well
add jade is blasting the era
going shopping with her again



oh yea and i like stacie orrico
the rnb queen in roxane's life
lmfao

sorry nic.

im sorry nic

i shoudnt told you all those fucktard shits

im sorry

its my fault

last night

your cries really freaked me
im scraed tat i wont see the nicole again

please dont

i still treat you like my sis

my big sis no mattar wot

dont be so negative
please dont

we are still going to make the best farewell eva in ELS

i want you to be back again

okey?

anna left me

dont left me

please dont

promise?

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dont let some1 get into your way

u cant

just be the nicole we all love

who gives a damn about wat she says

its useless

her opinion is just her opinion

not yours

not mine

not your mom's

not you dad's

most important

its not God's

remember this

i know this gurl...she lives in faraway street.

amy is a lass
never ask for more in life
just wanted a true frind near her

to hear her sorrows
to listen to the rhytem in her life
accepting who
she is
tats all
but that is the hardest treasure to find
no map
need to find it with faith
find it all by herself

she cries every night
alone with her little puppy doll
people laugh at her
she cares less

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i know how she feels
from the bottom of my heart

so they told me
the word "believe"
lies a "lie"

my day.

today is my day

i like it this way

thought tat my day will suck

but it didnt

yet turned out blastly

i like it

thanks for the cheers

thanks for giving me stuffs to fill up my time

luv you all

most important

thank you for accepting me

for wh i am

will tomorrow be the same?

i dont know

all i know is

cherishing everyday

is wot i should do every single day

life aint tough

i just need to get over it

roxy rose

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i hope tat you are doing great

though i still blame myself for being the shit

you told me

tat i shouldnt care bout wot u feel

but wot u feel means

loads to me

it really did

its the past

the forgotten past

to everyone out there

but not to me

not to you too

i guess

be happy

tat is the least i can wish for you

you really did lightened up moi life b4

roxy rose

.test is over.

the sucking test is over
i so like it
though didnt did well on ass hole history! DARN!
sigh man.
i guess i just shouldnt be tat lazy afterall.

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today's ENROLMENT IS A BLAST!!!!!!!!
i so luv it.
i luv my society
just hope tat everyone could enjoy it the way i do
just hope

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Nic is doing well with Vic
so is Add Jade and her dude

best wishes for all the luv birds out there

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nicole is going through something
something huge in her life
i just know it

im not sure wot happened
things just didnt turn out the way she wanna
she just need a BLING in her life

i hope tat i could cheer her up
i just hope
but i guess this time is different

wot will happen tomorrow?
will tomorrow be different for nic?
i dont know

all i know is when she gets over all this
you will see a brand new Nicole
the best one in our era

if you're wondering who is nic
i hope tat u can still c her again
the nicole which i used to know
freak

good listener
lovely
the damn gurl tat rockz
i hope tat u could still c her again

roxy rose.

no forever...

i use to believe tat dere is still forever out there.

til u showed up

i hate the way u used to say those shits to me

i hate it

youre such a faker!!!!!

though i have to admit tat

those words you use to say

really gave me butterflies

really gave a slightly smile on my face

i guess i will be a lonely Dork

without you all

i know i will

but u just walked away

u saw me but u pretended like you didnt

i hate you this way

i really do

why must you be jealous of me?

why must you?

you did it to her too,

remember?

why must you always

let people learn their lessons

using your stupid, fucktard, loser, shitly method?

why must you?

tell me?

do you feel better after doin it to me?

i know i had changed for the past few years

i know i did

i thought its the best of me so far

i guess you just dont lke it

do you?

you dont like the new me do you?

please dont do this

it hurts.

it really does.

tell me how will a castle surive without its King?

tell me how will a cake taste good without Sugar?

tell me wot is Roxy Rose without u all?