im alone to carry the heavy burden
its heavy yet fraguent
im not ginving up on anything
nowadays i felt that i have such a simple private life

n
i loved it.
to all the people out there who are seeking for happinness
all wat i can say is...
happinniess is always out there
waiting for u.
just remember to step out ur very very first step.

i wish u luck.
peace up.!

asking for too much

i never have too much
never have too little
just enough
it may seen too simple
but tats my life
n i accept it.

but i say never asking for too much is just tough

cos we ask for it
u ask for more
i ask for more
its a routine tat u n me need to follow
its a long journey to say
but this is the normal routine
a routine tat needs time to predict its appearance

not knowing wat will happen tommorow freaks me out
but i still need to wait till tomorrow to know wat will happen
so y not cherish now n keep life going

figuring life out is tough
but i wont stop thinking about it
cos its wat i need to do....



roxane roxy rose

if i say everything...

JY is rite no use thinking about the past they r just memories tat show u who u used to be.
but today is a gift.
cherishing wat we have r always important.
i know tat.
but i cant feel it, i need a guideline.
but where to find?
Turbo is no longer to be heard.
wats the left?
who will be my new councelor?
who will it be?

the moments

i smiled
i laughed
i jerked
i fooled around
tats the past.......
i cry
im broken to pieces
im bleeding
im alone
this is the truth.......
i guess time is like tat
it takes away everything
n then gave u nothing
then it will give u everything again
feeling ur nothingness
i need a guide line
a guider to guide me
but who will it be?
who can i trust?
always alone picking up the broken pieces
trying to mend it with tears
but it wont work
it never will
just one more question
how could this happen to me?
will things come back?

no home no place to mend a broken heart---im homeless

this had been my home
i luv it
i had always counted on this home
everytime when things got worse
i knew i still had this home
but i guess i was wrong
again and again
i have nothing
even my only home had abandoned me
tearing me to pieces
im alone
like the past
things i thought tat will never happen
just happened in a moment
i have nothing again
we once have fun together
we scream
we go wild
we jerk around
i was a clown
u were a clown
so r they
but then things just changed
i guess these stuff just wont come back again
but its ok
coz the pain the scar u planted in my heart
will be forever
the memories the moments we spent
will be everlasting planted in my heart

i guess its time to let it go
Even if i dont want even if ill miss it
Lets just forget about getting things back coz
Soon later ill realized tat its not worth it
coz the feeling of pain
the feeling of crying at night
have been getting me ever since the beginning............

realistic

sometimes its bleeding to believe tat things tat u hate will come again
sometimes its hard to believe tat things can get worse too
sometimes its tough to believe tat the pressure ull be having is incresing
sometimes its sad to believe tat ppl r changing
sometimes its painful to believe tat u have everything but everything means nothing
sometimes its lonely to believe tat no one knows u
sometimes its heart breaking to believe tat it has to start all over again tomorrow
sometimes its empty to believe tat ur alone
sometimes its too crap to believe ur coping alone
sometimes its just so not u to believe u have to please ppl
sometimes its just a fact to believe tat ur not u anymore

if i have a chance

if one day i have the chance
i wanna leave everything
and start all over again
i wont regret anything
coz i never had anything
though it seems like i have everything
but everything equals to nothing
the routines im going through
r just things tat i never wanna go through again
its tough when ur alone
its tough to be an outcast
if i have this chance
i wanna leave everything
n start all over again
the ppl im seeing everyday
r just ppl who i dont wanna c again
r just ppl who dont understand me
r just ppl who i hate
if i have this chance
i will leave everything
n start all over again
the presures im going through
r just heavy burderns
tat i hate to c or hate to touch it again
or lets say im scared
cos its too heavy
its too fraguent for somone like me


if i have this chance
i will leave this place
leaving everything far, far behind
n start all over again
its for my own good
its for my dreams to fly high
n most important its things tat i wanna do
it wont effect the world
but it sure effects my world
i guess
its time to live a life for myself
just myself
no second parties

a ship with no friend

we told each other it will be forever
we even had our hearts cross
but it just faded
just like writings written on the beaches
brought away by the mighty waves
u told me u will be there for me
n now im alone
confuse
so where r u?
the promises we made
the hug u used to give me
r just jokes
r just lies
we dont belong to each other anymore
but its too late to leave this ship
cos theres only one way
jumping into the deep blue sea
none of us will jump
i wont
u wont
she wont
no one will
we feel the distance though we are sitting rite next to each other
we dont feel our hearts cross
i dont trust u
n u dont trust me
but the ship is sanking trust me

a loneliness of an outcast

an outcast has never been ur name
then i only realized tat its the name tat suites u most
its sad to have this name
it feels lonely when ur an outcast
no one knows wot ur talking about
they think tat ur a loser or a piece of shit
and they dont even care wots in ur mind
its a sad start
the things tat u said
has never been the topic of the day
the things tat u said
r just so out of the world
no one cares
people says Hi
but inside they r thinking
can i ignore u in the future?
cos its not cool to talk to you
even ur "friends" think tat way
wats the left of u?
nothing
going to bed everynite
the only thing wishing to God is hoping tat tomorrow will be better
though knowing it wont
cos an outcast is ur name
a name tat will never be changed

roxane roxy rose

so i was going through utube n i heard avril's innocence..i thought its a sad song to fill up my emo feeling as in the emo feeling tat im feeling rite now...

but when the lyrics goes
i found a place so safe, not a single tear the first time in my life and now its so clear feel calm i belong, im so happy here so strong and now i let myself be sincere and so on
http://www.metrolyrics.com/innocence-lyrics-avril-lavigne.html just go check the lyrics out it will be easier.

mayb, in this song avril is not siding me too, mayb she felt tat life can b simple yet meaningful too...unlike me always so shit thinking negative...

i need to change my life already, i need to make my routine be more meaningful, i need to find the "bling" tat make life great .... i guess its time to cherish wot i really have...its time...
thanking God for letting me figure it out...Thank You Mighty God.

i guess its time to feel

happy.






a happy face in Mars, i guess its time i put one in my face.


roxane roxy rose
figuring out life

john mayor's say

Say what you need to say (x7)
Say what you need to saaay...

Have no fear
For giving in
Have no fear
For giving over
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open... wide...

i felt so sorry for her...

i dont wanna be a dork, loser , nerd, those damn thing man!

n then i took a peak at her

she seems tired

dissapointed.

is it my fault? i hope not....

damn, i told u its his fault.

damn it! does he thinks tat hes in a western culture country or something?

damn i told u she'll be jealous. i just knew it.

so now wat?

shes the victim,

hes the playboy.

n im the third party....

damn...i felt so sorry for her.

but wat the hell can i do?

ring her...?...

ewww...tats so not my type..

ewww....

my day normal routine...

hows my day today? lets see...went to school by bus normal routine


nothing much to say to him, the usual thing its like wat the hell can i talk to him? damn....nothing.. i guess still searching for stuff we are both into. oh my im like dead from quietness or something. i need to talk man, i really need to its like part of me or something...but hes like punishing me from it...wats wrong to talk by the way?


usual...use to it...





i dont get it...how could some1 do like this? its like u already gave ur whole thing well basically at least the heart is given but then y still act like ur a male " virgin "? stop tat ass....ur making peeps pissed..!..


seriously if im her im so going to kill or die inside or watever, damn ur like sharing ur apple with someone, no as in million of peeps...


pls stop killing me...
stop it...
making me feel so bad....

so this is why i luv musics, it never betray me.

its so sinciere so natural....

it makes me feel like its always there with me

never alone..

just luv it... n the best thing is...u can choose wat u like without caring wat others think.

but life, u cant

the ppl u meet, the things u see, the things u feel..

will never changed its fixed, u can only change ur view on looking on it n its so damn really. cos i dont dare to face it or something.....

if i fall one day, who will be there? oh no wait...im falling

im falling

and whos out there?

who sees it?

whos there to help me?

no one....

happy birthday MARY-KATE AND ASHLEY...luvs<333>

always being my best friend roxy rose

we all want happiness

and dread the thought of rain

when the sun fails to shine

we worry and complain

we forget that God above

is infinitely wise

and sometimes our ails

are blessing in disguise

for if we are always happy

filled with sunshine and cheer

our hearts would hold no mercy

for others who've shed tears.

so when trouble comes knocking

remember to stay strong

rainbows always follow the storm

and dark clouds never stay long.

catch me when i fall....its so deep.....i can relate....

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done and everybody runs

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall


It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me

fallen...

so not going to tell wat happened

my lips r sealed

coz....

i know if i said a word...

my life will be ruined...

ppl will think tat im crazy...and then...

ill be forced to believe tat im crazy too.

i just felt lonely n empty

tats all...

y treat me like a weirdo?

im stress up by no stress..

im empty when i have everything

im just...

im just...

feeling down by no reason or something...

untitled again?

ok hey there,
i guess tat im back
i told u ill be over those neg stuffs...

well erm....
yea it just took basically just one day....

i mean life is too short
for those stuffs... ...

but i hate to say this
sometimes we do need this sort of
neg, stuff to keep life going on..
as in we grow from these stuffs...





this








pic is simple plan live is osaka, how cool is tat.

ok so erm...i was going through


SIMPLE PLAN'S WEBSITE


http://www.simpleplan.com


n...


omg..


its so cool da consert in Osaka..



wow! i wish i was there!!!!!





I LUV U CHUCK!!!!!


I LUV U PIEERE!!!!!


N ALL THE OTHERS





SIMPLEPLAN IS JUST SO WAY GREAT!!!!!]





NEVER REGRET PUUTING U GUYS ON MY


favorite band list!!!!!!!!!!!





luv u all to bites.!!!!!!!!

untitled....shut the eff up.!

i feel so down to earth...
so lost....
when i thought tat it all turned out differently,
it didnt... it didnt....

i really wanna cry...
i wanna scream...

but wheres my tears?
wheres my voice?

i just dont feel like myself anymore..

ppl all around me..
saying tat
im crazy...

but do they really know me?
do u really know me?
pls dont act like u know everything!

ur making me pissed!!!!

all i wanted is just a little of concern
from ya'all...tats all..
y is it tat hard?

shut up!

n...i told myself before tat i wanna stay out from these stuffs, but it seems like now,

its the only stuff tat i can relate 2.

EMPTINESS.....

roxy rose

im not trying to be negaitve but...pls read...im tired...

im smiling am faking i guess.....

sick of crying

tired of tring

Yeah i'm smiling on the outside

but inside

im Dying

on the outside, to the world

to those who love me

i seem to be happy

so together

on the inside im just Empty

=roxy rose =

PLS if ur reading this post,

pls...

dont give up on me....

i still luv u all to bits....

i still...

i promise.

i just feel empty....

pls dont look at me like im a weird teen or something

i just wanna be me

but sometimes

presure

the surroundings

emptiness

lonliness

is getting me

pls....dont give up on me....

i beg for mercy....

untitled a.k.a. alone

i was just wondering....

if this is my road to the end....

how will it be?

am i alone?

am i?

i hope tat an angel will show up....

to guide me....

i dont wanna feel like this anymore.....

im tired...

very....

but im not gonna give up...

so NO

NEVER!!!

but please.....

pls GOD pls let someone show up

to guide me....

pls....

i dont want my life

to be wasted just like tat...

i dont want to...

LOst roxy rose

please spend sometimes reading this lyrics its wat i have 2 say

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's likeTo be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost

To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles
and
stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost

No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

wat had happened to me?

to day is the first day back to skool n..
everything turned out great..
only...
i should had finish tat stuff, cos now its like circling me, all over me
how will tomorrow be?
i just hope tat it can get better.

i felt so sorry 4 u...
i seriously do...
u guys luv me to bits..
but i....
i felt tat i've let u guys down...
i really did..
im not asking for a forgivness...
cos it really is my own fault...
i know...
all wat i wanna say is...

now adays ive been
broken to pieces
by no one
no one broke it

its me who broke it

i wish tat i could find back the past me
n continue life

i know tat it will all be over
but can someone tell me when?

my surrounding had changed
no one around me
is the past them already
the surroundings ive been through
is no longer the same
so am i

all wat i just wanna know is
how much have i changed?
wats the comments from every1?

wat is it?

when i saw tat writing
i was shocked
cos it never happened to me
it never....
where is the past me?
the past me
who every1 luved?

roxy rose where r u?

untitled a.k.a. nothing

when i know tat the whole world had abandoned me
i told myself its ok at least i still have u
but i was wrong
i meant nothing to u too

i get it
i get it
u think tat im a burden dont u?
a very heavy burden tat u just wanna put it down n never take it again
but its ok its like
everyone wants the best
and im not so i simply understand if u
give up on me or anything

i know ur tired
so am i
from emptiness
loliness
nothingness

i dont get it
seens u dont even wanna understand me
so y pick me up at the beginning?

tat is y i cant trust u...
tat is y
i just cant tell u my biggest secret
because ur not worth 2 know it
mayb u dont even wanna know my secret?
my deep dark secret?
but its ok ill just keep it by myself
just like the other secret
just like tat

or....
mayb u dont even care wats going around me?
i meant nothing to u
dont i?

i just have a simple question for u
wat do i honestly mean to u?
an ass?

broken reddish roxy rose

i have to agree with this

"Time stands still when no one understands you and you don't quite understand yourself. Today didn't have to be this way, tomorrow is another day, another chance to make things right.."

wats wrong with every1 these days?

so is it my problem or wat?
but i felt tat every1 is just so pissed off these days....
n the most important
ANTISOCIAL
how come?

i missed the past....
i really miss it...
everytihng...

my perfect hair cut....
my perfect neck skin
my perfect eye issue
my online friends

the perfect days i spent with everyone
it seems like everything changes
everyday
every momment
every second...

so did i...

how come?
i didnt mean to b negative but
wat the bloody hell is wrong?

shut the eff up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont wanna hear anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there is this thing call
MONEY
which drived everyone so crazy..
nite n days
thinking about it...
the moment they open there eyes
they just think aobut it....

EFF UP!!!!!!!

wat the hell?
i know tat bunch of crap papers r important!!!!!!!!

but i do beieve tat there is something more important out there...
i really do believe...

pls GOD changed this situation...
pls....
lets just go back to the old age....
mayb it will b better...

p.s.
if ur a person who think tat
my this post is a piece of ass or anything
i tell ya

this is just simply my own opinion
its just an opinion of a teen who was a victim of
tat bunch of
crap papers..
seriously...
get a life.....

im tired of it...

alone.....loneliness...emptiness....is always getting me....

untitled a.k.a. lonliness

sometimes...
life is very tiring.
not tiring from
pressure
unpaid bills
meeting issues
scolded by boss issues
but
tired from
lonliness
empty

no!

u dont know how it feels
dont try 2 know every thing
never!!!!!!!
becos u dont know me
u all dont
dont judge me just like tat
please dont

u all think tat life is simple for us
but let me tell u...

when u r surounded by loliness
by emptiness
or by emoness

life aint simple....
it aint....

im sorry...
i just cant be perfect...

im sorry...
i just cant be the perfect gurl ya'all wish i could be...

im sorry....

the awful lollipop gurl

the worst lollipop gurl on earth

she wasted all her idiotic time on stupid stuffs...

doing meanigful stuff...

didnt even get the perfect gift 4 some1 tat important...

cant even b on time..

not tat nice...

ordered something but didnt eat...even throw it 2 her preciuos friend...

so lame...

not brilliant or gorgeous ...

how shit...

tats wat i actually feel abot this lollipop gurl...

way crap...

cant she be better?

cant she?

cant she?

y?