31 December.

in this post, its a flashback. wat have i done wat ever pop up, will be typed.
07 to 08 new year countdown, was crap. yup one word CRAP. in my memories tat is wat i rmbered.

refreshing back at when skool openned, i was totally on my vein, everyone looks so fresh to me, i adore my classmates.

the broke up with Dave, the so called "reunion" with Brendon, was preety cool( i mean the Brendon thing not Dve ), well tats was the past, he ( Brendon ) made me lke drawn in a million feet when he didnt even at least try to save THAY whole mess, tat was a crap! OH, N IM SO GLAD TAT WE BROKE UP! YUPIEEEE.... '=D oh yea, n chocalates? yea tat was sth too.

God made everything happen for me, Nic is the greatest ever, Anna is my adoreness, n ELS!!!MY BABY! ahahahahA. S1AC108, Turbo was once my addicness, im now addicted too...errr....erm yea, we talk crap EVERY SINGLE NITE'=D ... add jade will never be 4gotten, bolevard 1992 we found our own path, n im happy for all of u guys, hui thong, shin, shiling, wen fei, thanks for making my part time job, rock! wat else? DJ im glad u found ur happiness. yea, mom n dad, u guys r preety awesome too, so is the whole package( u know who u guys are ), still thanks loads for everyone.


this years SCHOOL ANNIVERSARY was THE BEST EVER!!!!!!!!!well for me, IT WAS.=D hahahaha im telling myself tat 09 will be AWESOME MORE AWESOME, just wait and see, I WILL STILL BE PART OF IT!!!!<333333333333

THE CAMP GANG! yea how can i forget ya'all? i had so much fun on the camp, i reALLy did. i luv it when everyone luvs seeing me beING myself, n u guys yea u guys, made me shine from the inside out, first i admit i thought it will be a lame camp, serious shit tat is wat i thought, but then it was the best ever, I LOVE KANG LE N THE CAMP LEADERS, N YEA YEA, EVERYONE WHO MADE ME LAUGH I HEART YOU ALL!!!!!!!

my 08 school holiday is the best best very best ever, i spent every minutes with joy, well not every but i really did enjoy, at least i dont have to be a potato coach the entire holiday, unlike the past holidays, yea!

wat else? yea, Roxy Rose. i luv her so much!!!!!!!!!she is the rocking gal eva! thanks you for Not giving up on challenges, thank you for believing in God and yourself, thank you for being a brilliant gal, shes NOT ordinary, just too cool for you, lmao. just kidding. '=D
I HEART ROXY ROSE!!!!!!!!!<333333333333333333333333oh,>

still loads not recorded. but i can shout to the world when i flashback about My SWEET 16, I NEVER WASTED THIS YEAR, THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A MIRACLE. thank you, a big big thank you to everyone out there for me.

I HEART MY LIFE! '=D

08 ROXYROSE. the last, yea the last post for this year. thank you for reading it. ur an awesome reader, yes you are. =) no doubt.

mirror.

went to add jades house to celebrate her SWEET 16, went out for lunch with her sis and her friends her bf was there too. but she told me she didnt enjot it though, totally make sence to me, seriously i will feel bored of tat kind of birthday celebration, planning to have a "REAL" b'dae celebration with the gangs when school starts, cant wait.

happy sweet 16 deary. ><>

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dad told me some craps on the way to add jades house. seriously, i knew tat all the way. please, dont treat me as a little kid, just make things straight, tell me, " hey you shouldnt end up in a relationship in this kind of so called young age ". im kinda frustrated. yea the health importance, the family issues, friendship stuffs, it totally make sence to me. did u heard me then? i told u i am big enough i know wats good for me or lets say US, tat is y i made things clear with the lad.

i wanna be my own mirror, I WANNA BE one of my MY OWN ROLE MODEL, make my own mistakes and mend it in my way.

for all this time, i dont want to stare at the mirror, and i dont see myself. i always follow people's footstep. wat ever ppl are obssesed, i just kept on following, well not TOTALLY, coz im a gal with her OWN PERSONAL UNIQUE THINKING, DONT JUDGE ME. WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME? remember tat, im not like you or any others.
so in this whole drama, i made it clear, i wanna be a role model for myself this time, i wanna follow my heart, i wont enter this relationship, yea u heard me. i wanna be a role model about
" letting your dreams fly as high as it could ever be". everyone will say im doing the rite thing, but do i myself think so too? wat if i can do well in both?
its okey, we dont get wat we want, normal.

one more thing is, my conclussion, dont be too obssesed about anything when your in my age. really, should just focus on things tat will bring you high up, which is your so sure its right for you. if the one your holding on, is the one you had always wanted, go for it! if not, its okey, ur better of alone, and someone will be there, wating for you. so, no worries.

wow, full of colors in this post.

grown.

roxy rose, has never been so "high pitch" before.

i luv myself, n i luv being my own mirror.

i dont want to grow up.

i wanna be a teenager forever
i never wanna grow up
adults life is too complicated
i dont want to accept it

i thought u wanted to see me be myself
the girl who likes to be herself in front of people
i thought i will bring you glory
i was wrong i brought you shame

im sorry i didnt know u wanted me to put on my mask
im sorry i had let you down
like all the time
its my fault for being myself

if tommorrow i wake up and have been told
i will be 16 forever
i guess my life will be boring and dull
16 forever is tat wat i really wanted?

i said i wanted to write something, this is the something.

i have been giving you a lot of unseen presures recently, but this post is to show you how much u meant to me. ^^

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i am 16
never wonder what life will bring me
never wonder God gave me all of these
to make me a happy one

and there you are
at the crossroad
you look cute even with kids fashion trend
i believe it will be shown one day in a runway

i turn left
u turn right
we never go the same way
coz tat is wat we are made of
and tat is wat added up the happinness between us

question makrs running through each others head
never made it right

*to be continued*

my XMAS.

this years Xmas wasnt so fun afterall, hangout in Spore. gee...its not tat great, i have to say. but at least got the chance to hangout with Choo Yi n the family. tat was awesome then.

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u ask me wats with us
i dont know
though this has been circling me all the time
im speacless now

being confuss
dont know how to react infront of u anymore
im lost
i dont know how to start

im so tired
so easily being beated
yet i always act strong
always act reckless in front of you

you double the happiness in me
you double up the sorrowness in me
give me an answer
an unfortable answer

we smile to each other
we giggle together
but tell me
do you feel the distance between us?
coz i do

we havent started our journey
and i felt so left out
tell me how can we fix it
im tense over the unspoken
the unspoken we have been keeping from each other

im sorry
im not tat perfect
i know you never wish i was perfect
but i hope i was to measure you up

today.

we went out, the four jokers, lady boss, sis, me, n dragon.
i say its okey, at least i can meet everyone, n i luv hui thong, bought my shirt, the pink one VIP, for the camp gathering.

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ur not over ur ex
so im just her replacement afterall
u shouldnt tell me
u should just fake it

im everytihng shes not
im really not
im just not
n ur punishiming me for it

ur hurting me do u know?
u never know
coz u never care
u really just dont

u make me feel so ashame
im sorry im not perfect
just all messed up
shes good i know

im crying do u know?
i dont wanna just be friends
i dont want
i really dont want

im not ur tool
if u care u should tell me about her
it hurts it really does
im not kidding

life isnt like this
you tear it around
never put it in the correct track
ur wrong

never try to put things back
its not like tat
i never get it right
so do you

im not going to change
u can leave me
u dont need to mend my heart
its already broken

its the end
i just dont know
y do i still forgive u eveytime
giving u the chances

it all happens becos i really really am in-like with you
dont u still get it?
ur dumb!
u really r

this girl.

this girl forgives u everytime

she never cares about the wastage she had done for u

becos she likes to see u smile

she likes u from the bottom of her heart

u told her ur feelings

gave her hope to find the fairytale she had wanted

but then u never move on

leaving her all alone

if u still like her

please dont give up

u shouldnt let her wait so long

becos u r the guy she adores

u should just go for it

grab her hands like u had never touch a hand before

tell her again u like her like u will never have the chance

look into her eyes like u have seen the most beautiful eyes in ur life

if shes invisible

u wont see how much she adores u

u wont see how much she needed u

but she isnt so y cant u see through her?

christmas.

Finally! it will be Christmas, my favorite season of the year, well its always summer here, but i like to enjoy those fake snowflakes n dress lovely on Jesus's Birthday, seeing everyone smiling, laughing just sound so peaceful.

December 25, totally looking forward to it. the countdowns, the screamings, everything. when Christmas comes, it means tat a new year is going to begin again. i will be 17 then. Yes, all of a sudden, i will be 17. i know time flies, i really do. i cherish everything around me.
2009 say i will be different, i say i will show everyone A NEW ME, stay tune.

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traceline luvs her Rockable life.

i heart my camp n my life.

the RS gruop in camp adores me, so do I. juat like waT i said, i cant really dance the moves n so on. but who cares? coz i did enjoy the camp thing, i mean the whole camp thing. most important i luv everyone in the RS group i really do. its just a matter of how much, lmfao.

i met Nic n Vic, i thought they were mad coz i didnt turn out for society meeting, but guess wat? i was so totally wrong!~Nic still luvs me, im so so happy about tat, n their frand is so cool, i mean wow, he is so funny, HYPO too~!~

life's like this,

i mean, i shouldnt worry so much, i just shouldnt. i mean, life isnt like this, we shouldnt think so negative, not so negative, but shouldnt think negative.

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i hate casey i have to say. so damn no manners i say this in a rude way.*********8interupted my mood. FISH! LIKE DARN FISH.
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i shll continue my blog writing when i feel like.

damn! casey! damn u, destroyed my mood.
fuck.

back.

the best of the trip is Malacca. Aunt Mary's mother is a rocking 9o year old lady. shes so cool i really have to say this, so POSITIVE mind thinking lady. I ADORE HER.

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n then i say....

i just went for a 1 week holiday, n look, everything seems to change. it had changed. please tell me wats wrong. i know i have been acting like a slacker these days, but its not like i wont put everything in the correct track again.

i dont know wats wrong, i really just dont know. for a few seconds b4, everything was fine. until i called, everything just seems so wrong.
everyone sounded okey in the calls, its just me i guess. it really is me. its like the one on the other side of the phone is rocking wild, n im so sick n dead. wats wrong? hello, im still Traceline. so yea.

ELS, im sorry for not being a good leader, i know its my fault. i have been waiting for changes until, all of these sucky things just pop out from nowhere, im not myself anymore. im sorry Nic, im sorry i know ur dissapointed, i really know u r. im sorry Vic, for not being a good partner for u, im really sorry. but i PROMISE i will mend everything again.

RS in camp, damn, my biggest sorry goes out to all of u in there, when all of u r like danging doing preperations, i wasnt dere, its my fault also for being so laid back.

my family, now u guys r happy, im to blame. i told u i never wanted such a long holiday, family trip? y not call it a suffer trip?

my 8th december.

my job has ended today, totally miss it. i luv or lets say i heart everything about it.
i will miss
Chris( my boss ), juby, terressa, Seed( already missed ), anther one, all the make up artist, Michael ( sound dude ), my peeps, everytihng the stage, totally everytihng about it.
ive totally learnt a lot these dayz. thanks to all of ya!

ELS is heading to Kukup, 2moro, n im heading to Genting and KL, i like KL, but Genting, not really, hope tat this time will be different, just like wat Nic always remind me,
suck the fun outta it! ';D thanks nic, u have always been my besties, now and always.<3333333333

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I 4gave everything about you
coz i believe tat its all worth it
i will miss you for sure
i was just hidding

promise me you will take care of urself
no1 will be there to talk crap with ya for at least one week more
most important no1 will remind you tat ur awesome
but you always are

dont skip meals
i heart every moment spent with you
just tell me im not thinking too much
hearted it

i hope time can stop
in the moment i feel safe n myself
cant believe everything needed a change

can my life b a football court
can i see my own goal
the goal i wanted?

i felt tired
but i wont sleep
coz i wanna cherish the moment with you

how about u?
when u feel alone
who do u think of?

we aint meant for each other
but y do we insist to give it a try?
y r we willing to take the risk?

im so tired
tired of searching topics to interest u
tired of thinking about our happy endings
tired of thinking about all those impossibles

everytime when i try to let go of you

u have the power to make me miss you
n then i wont let u go not anymore

everytime when i wanna cry
you have the might to make me smile
n then my tears will dry up

tell me im not in-like with you
coz i dont wanna be addicted to you
coz i hate the pain

n then i will wake up like nothing happen
like a daydream
n then i will 4get about everything
only remembering tat I LIKE YOU