mirror.

went to add jades house to celebrate her SWEET 16, went out for lunch with her sis and her friends her bf was there too. but she told me she didnt enjot it though, totally make sence to me, seriously i will feel bored of tat kind of birthday celebration, planning to have a "REAL" b'dae celebration with the gangs when school starts, cant wait.

happy sweet 16 deary. ><>

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dad told me some craps on the way to add jades house. seriously, i knew tat all the way. please, dont treat me as a little kid, just make things straight, tell me, " hey you shouldnt end up in a relationship in this kind of so called young age ". im kinda frustrated. yea the health importance, the family issues, friendship stuffs, it totally make sence to me. did u heard me then? i told u i am big enough i know wats good for me or lets say US, tat is y i made things clear with the lad.

i wanna be my own mirror, I WANNA BE one of my MY OWN ROLE MODEL, make my own mistakes and mend it in my way.

for all this time, i dont want to stare at the mirror, and i dont see myself. i always follow people's footstep. wat ever ppl are obssesed, i just kept on following, well not TOTALLY, coz im a gal with her OWN PERSONAL UNIQUE THINKING, DONT JUDGE ME. WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME? remember tat, im not like you or any others.
so in this whole drama, i made it clear, i wanna be a role model for myself this time, i wanna follow my heart, i wont enter this relationship, yea u heard me. i wanna be a role model about
" letting your dreams fly as high as it could ever be". everyone will say im doing the rite thing, but do i myself think so too? wat if i can do well in both?
its okey, we dont get wat we want, normal.

one more thing is, my conclussion, dont be too obssesed about anything when your in my age. really, should just focus on things tat will bring you high up, which is your so sure its right for you. if the one your holding on, is the one you had always wanted, go for it! if not, its okey, ur better of alone, and someone will be there, wating for you. so, no worries.

wow, full of colors in this post.

grown.

roxy rose, has never been so "high pitch" before.

i luv myself, n i luv being my own mirror.